somebody that i used to know // grey

[lupa cybell axly]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? Ten years and it was still weird for Lupa to travel where she wanted. She still couldn't get used to this freedom. Back when she was a kid if you were caught outside district lines you were shot on the spot, didn't matter if it was an "accident" or no. So everyone just kind of avoided the edges of the district, or at least they did in three. She wasn't sure how it was anywhere else other than in District Three and the capitol since she'd only been to two of the other districts for the victor's tour. She didn't even make it to the rest since they declared her insane and threw her away. During that time she met someone not too far from her age who actually came to visit her. Grey, was his name actually. He'd been a victor just a few months earlier of when she was locked up and he feared ended up the way Lu did. So he'd come talk to her, and really she was sure it helped her more than it helped him. Lu knew talking to herself was hard, she wasn't exactly the easiest person to get along with. But Grey pushed through that barrier and managed to become someone she could refer to as a friend. He'd been one of the very few people she could actually hold a conversation with without going absolutely bat-shit insane. Of course there was Sar, but she'd grown up with Sar, one day she just decided to let this other boy into her life and somehow he actually managed to earn his place there. Lu sat quietly on the train as they pulled up to the district. The whole train ride people had looked at her weird when one of her episodes came noticed. She'd placed her hands over her ears, talked quietly to herself and squeezed her eyes shut with tremendous force, and this was what always happened. She'd think by now people would be used to her being like this, but she guessed not. Heck she couldn't blame them, ten years of dealing with these horrid hallucinations, voices, visions, and she wasn't even used to it yet. The little voice inside her head always begs her to end her life, but she ignores it, because somewhere inside the brain of this messed up girl lies the old Lupa Axly, and she knew she was stronger than this. She knew that some way or another there would be a day she'd rise about this turmoil, and then she'd be free of the curse from the games. She always felt so out of place, where she went, unless she was with Sar. It seemed like it was only the two of them that had these psychotic problems. Everyone else some how got over them, even Sarneea wasn't that bad. But Sar was much stronger than she was and a few years older too. Once the train stopped she quickly grabbed her small bag, filled with her clothes and such and made her way off the train. She made her way through the town, which seemed like it took hours. Really it was probably only a fifteen or twenty minute walk, no worse than what she dealt with back home. Except here, there was wheat, lots and lots of wheat fields. The brunette shoved her hands in her pocket as she walked. The ground beneath her seemed to change, and it appeared to be like the grass that was in the arena, back at her games. shit, not here, please not here. She mumbled her thoughts quietly under her breath as she closed her eyes. Standing for a moment and just breathed, in a few minutes it would pass, or she hoped it would. There were times that these flashbacks and hallucinations would render her mind unconscious and she'd be trapped in them, but her body would still be moving. When she opened them, everything was back to normal. She finally found her way to the victor's village. It was in a more secluded area than where the one in district three was located. The brunette fixed her hair and walked up to Grey's house, knocking on the door ever so lightly, but making sure it was loud enough to be heard." Um..Grey? It's Lupa." Hopefully he wouldn't be upset by her surprise visit. She just needed to get away from everything back home, even if it was for only a few hours. words 750 tagged grey notes hope this is ok ^^ outfitclick coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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[grey gaius aldjoy]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=border,0,true] [style=overflow: auto; width: 346px; height: 300px; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; color: #000000; line-height: 100%; background: #ffffff; opacity: 1.0; text-align: justify; -moz-border-radius: 450px; border-radius: 30px 30px 30px 30px; border: 4px solid #666666;] Grey was in bed. He probably should have been up ages ago, but no he was in bed in just his underwear being lazy as usual, he couldnt be bothered to get up, he'd had plenty of days like this when he was a child but his sister would always make him get up, but now there was nobody to get him up so he could just lounge about in his underwear all day if he wanted to, or at least thats what he thought. Then suddenly there was a knock at the door, that he heard pretty clearly even if it was only a gentle knock because the house had been silent. Grey grabbing a t-shirt and shoving it on quickly. Then he heard the voice come from behind the door. Lupa! what's she doing here, i hope she's ok this only made him rush more which wasn't helping as he couldn't find any trousers. "Coming Lupa, hold on one moment" he said eventually finding some jeans and putting them on as he made his way towards the front door. He almost fell down the stairs, that could have been awkward but he'd managed to regain his balance in time and was now standing at the door, somewhat dressed and presentable. He opened the door and greeted the woman with a smile. "Hey Lupa, You come all this way just to see me?" he asked taking her hand and leading her inside closing the door behind her. He knew if she was outside she would be more likely to have one of her episodes than if she was inside somewhere she could concentration on just talking to him, plus less people would be able to see her if she did have an episode, he didnt want anyone talking about Lupa in any mean way, she was a good person and great friend. He noticed her bag and began to wonder what Lupa was actually doing here, if she wanted to stay with him for a bit he wouldn't have cared the least, sharing his bed would probably be way out of the question but he would happily sleep on the sofa for her. "You alright beautiful?" he asked with a smile, genuinely slightly worried but he'd covered that worry by flirting slightly but then again Lupa rarely even notices his flirtatious side, it was one of the things he liked about her, she'd survived a hunger games and came out innocent as far as he was concerned, her episodes were just proof that what had happened haunted her and that she was still a good person. [style= font-family: times; font-size: 30px; color: #; line-height: 35%; text-align: center;] Just a gentle reminder that now are better days~

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[lupa cybell axly]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? The brunette smiled in relief as he came to the door. She blushed a little once he grabbed her hand and pulled her in the door. She couldn't lie that she was extremely happy to see him. Lu threw her arms around him and pulled him into a tight bear hug as she giggled." Of course I did, it's been too long." After a few minutes she pulled away from the hug, her darling little smile still painted her face. After a minute things seemed to get serious once he asked what was wrong. Her grin quickly faded and the brunette sighed. She set her bag down and started to dig through it before pulling out five different pill bottles and flashing them at him before she threw them back." I wish I could say I was , but apparently I'm not. The government has now upped my medication and i'm now newly diagnosed as schizophrenic." Lupa buried her face into her hands." I just needed to get away from everything, especially the games, at least a day or so before I have to go train with my tribute, just so she can end up dying." Lu chocked on her words as she spoke. She usually didn't care about her tributes that much since she knew better than to get attached, though this girl was different. She could see a lot of herself in Alethea, and she hoped the girl could win this, but then again she didn't want her to end up like Lupa. Of course Lu hadn't ever been the stronger person so she fell under. She took a minute and just breathed. Now that she thought about it, did he just call her beautiful? She could feel her cheeks get warm and could tell that they were a rosy pink color again. She tried not to laugh at the fact that she knew that she was blushing but a small little squeak managed to escae. At least this would lighten the conversation a little bit. She hated talking about her problems, but Grey understood, so with him as long as he didn't mind, neither did she. She rested a hand around her waist and let the other dangle how it already was. Lupa sighed deeply before speaking again. " I know I shouldn't talk like this but there's been rumors of another rebellion..if it happens i-i..I think i'm going to join.." Her voice trailed off softly before getting quiet again." Silly idea isn't it? and I probably couldn't handle it anyway. But it's worth a shot. I found my snare the other day, it killed me to see it, but I actually can still use it pretty darn good." Her hazel eyes trailed up from the ground and rested on his. A half hearted smile crept it's way back to her face. Lu doubted even if a rebellion did happen,she'd be able to help. She knew that she mentally just wasn't there anymore, at least not enough to fight again. It would probably trigger some unwanted hallucinations and yet again say hello to another four years of institutionalization and therapy. Still being in "recovery" it wasn't the best idea for her to think about this. Especially since if the peace keepers heard her talking like this, they'd kill her, end of story, no if's and's or buts about it. Or they could wait until they heard orders from the president, but she doubted that he'd want her to live after talking like she was either. words 590 tagged grey notes ^^ outfit click coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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[grey gaius aldjoy]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=border,0,true] [style=overflow: auto; width: 346px; height: 300px; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; color: #000000; line-height: 100%; background: #ffffff; opacity: 1.0; text-align: justify; -moz-border-radius: 450px; border-radius: 30px 30px 30px 30px; border: 4px solid #666666;] Lupa blushing was one of the most adorable thing he had seen in a long time but he decided to leave it unmentioned, he didn't want her to blush so much she was unable to speak right. Then suddenly he was pulled into a hug he wasnt really expecting but he hugged her back just as much, picking her up and spinning her around too before letting her go. "Way too long, i was begining to think you'd found better people to talk to" he joked with a smile knowing things were going to get serious soon but as long as he knew she could be the happy Lupa he cared so much about he would be able to get her back to that. Grey looked at the medication, he wasn't sure if she actually needed them or it was making her worse, either way the amount she was expected to take was ridiculous. He could understand perfectly what it was like to want to get away from the hunger games for a bit, he wanted to every year but he had to do what he had to do, he didnt want to die or become an avox. Grey looked at Lupa, she looked like her world was ending but it was his job to keep her happy at least thats what he'd decided. Wrapping his arms around her and pulling her to his chest he hugged her "Lu, you can stay here for as long as you like, you know that" he told her pulling away slightly so he could look her in the eyes as they spoke. He noticed her blush Ah so she noticed the beautiful comment then he thought pleased with himself, he'd managed to cheer her up without even trying very hard, that was something he could be proud of. Grey let her go and took a step back giving her room to breathe. Grey didnt want to see Lupa in any kind of rebellion, he didnt want to see her put her life at risk. "Lupes, you know i'm not gonna allow that, i'm not loosing you, if there is a rebellion.. we're only taking part when it gets very serious ok?" he said, he wasnt going to loose on of his closest friends to the capitol and if he was well he wasnt going to lose her without a fight. "I'd like to see you use your snare though" he admitted. Grey then picked up Lupa's bag and took her hand once again to lead her somewhere. This time it was to the living room where he took a seat on the sofa leaving plenty of room for Lupa to sit next to him and placing her bag on the floor. "There now we're comfortable" he said with a smile and added "So, you came all the way here to see me looking amazing and i have literally just got out of bed.. If anyone were to walk in on us now i'd probably be the one expected to take all those pills" he said trying to make her cheer up a little, he cared about Lupa a lot, if it wasnt for her he'd have probably lot it and would also be on a wide variety of pills but somehow she'd kept him sane and he owed her a lot for that. [style= font-family: times; font-size: 30px; color: #; line-height: 35%; text-align: center;] Just a gentle reminder that now are better days~

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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? The brunette girl giggled childishly as he picked her up and swung her around in the hug. She nodded agreeing with his words, surprisingly they were right. It had probably been at least two months since the last time she'd saw him, that was far too long for her concern. She knew she wouldn't regret visiting him. She smiled at his offer to stay as long as she'd like. of course at the most she'd be here a day and a half to two days, just because she needed to be back soon to see Alethea and help her." Thanks Grey.. I really appreciate it." Lu smiled genuinely as she knew what was next to come. She couldn't lie though, she really wanted to help some way or another with the rebellion. Even if she wasn't able to fight at first, at least help keep them communicated with each part of their army would be just fine. She nodded agreeing with his words. She couldn't argue with him, either way she'd lose." Okay, but if it does, we're stepping in." She spoke in all seriousness before smiling to him about his snare comment. She chuckled a little, that weapon brought back so many bad memories, but some how holding onto it comforted her. It was weird how it was like that. Heck, she really couldn't believe the capitol let her keep it since she was such a " danger to the public safety." Well at least that's what the president told her, that little retort always made her laugh. Sure she was pretty unstable, but unless she felt really threatened she'd never strike out, but that had to take certain precautions just to make sure she wouldn't. " May be one day you can." She grinned deviously, it felt good to use her snare again, it was a weird feeling but it was gone. Lupa blushed again once his hand came in contact with her's. She really wasn't used to touchy feely stuff, but it was Grey so she really didn't mind. The only other person she had ever allowed to take her hand was Akar, back during the games. She even had let him get as far as cuddling with her up in one of the trees while the careers hunted the others down. Thinking about this made her feel all funny. She was praying that Alethea wouldn't develop a close relationship with anyone during the games since that would just make it so much harder in the end to get rid of them, and if she lost that person, she'd probably break, just like Lupa did. Even alliances were hard since you never knew when someone would turn and stab you in the back, metaphorically and literally. Some of those kids in the games were absolutely viscous blood-thirsty monsters. Lupa wasn't like that until Akar died, but then she went insane, slaughtering anyone in her path. It was still astonishing to think a small twelve year old Lupa could cause so much destruction and chaos. Just thinking about it made her laugh a little, realizing she'd just laughed randomly out loud made her quite embarrassed. She looked down for a minute as she sat on the couch next to Grey."Sorry." The brunette girl apologized quietly as she sat next to him. Lupa smiled at his next comment and giggled a little before shaking her head and speaking. " Naww, you don't look bad at all. And even if they were to come in and see this, they'd still figure it was me on the pills, since i'm the infamous Lupa Axly, the only tribute to be institutionalized and need severe mental help." She laughed a little at her words while she spoke her name over exaggeratedly and proudly. She was glad Grey did understand her though. Many people couldn't but she was thankful to have someone that was so genuinely nice to her all the time, even if she did get a little snarky towards him. She quickly removed her shoes before bring her legs onto the couch. Lu pulled her legs up under her to make herself more comfortable.She slowly reached out and grabbed Grey's hand, hesitantly, but she still did. She held it for a minute before speaking." Thank you for being there for me all these years. You'll never understand how much I appreciate it." She spoke while looking at their hands intertwined before looking back up to him and smiling again. words 747 tagged grey notes ^^ outfitclick coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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[grey gaius aldjoy]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=border,0,true] [style=overflow: auto; width: 346px; height: 300px; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; color: #000000; line-height: 100%; background: #ffffff; opacity: 1.0; text-align: justify; -moz-border-radius: 450px; border-radius: 30px 30px 30px 30px; border: 4px solid #666666;] Lupa was great, Grey would tell anyone that and he would fight anyone who didnt agree, she was one of the nicest people he had ever met but her life had screwed her over and that's why she was seen as crazy by many people, but not him, she was more sane to him than any snob at the capitol. He gave a small nod when she told him she appreciated his offer, he could have told her it was nothing which to him it was but he knew she wouldnt have any of that and would insist it means a lot. "Your kidding right, if your gonna fight you best believe im gonna be right there by your side" he stated the thought of seeing her in action was good, he'd seen her hunger games she'd been really impressive but he knew the price of being impressive in a hunger games. Then he got an idea. "Hold on" he said getting up and running into his kitchen and coming back with a knife and an apple, in his hunger games he'd won by using a sword and a chunk of wood he'd cut off a tree for a shield but he had also used throwing knives, well the one but he'd lost that earlier on in the games, not many people knew he was pretty good with them. "You'll enjoy this" he stated throwing the apple into the air then throwing his knife at it, impaling the apple and sticking it to his wall. Clearly he hadnt thought that through very well as now he had apple juice all over the floor and the wall, not to mention a stab mark in the wall. He decided to just leave it in the wall for now and turned back to Lupa taking a bow "Taa daa!" he said creating his own little fan fair. Grey had never had anyone in his hunger games, he had been alone except for one day where he came across another kid who was whimpering behind a tree terrified, he'd teamed up with the kid but the kid just didnt have what it took and whilst Grey was trying to find somewhere they could hide, he was killed, the rest of the games he had spent alone. He was brought out of this thought by Lupa laughing, and then she appologised for it. "No, dont ever apologize to anyone for laughing, that would be like if the birds apologized for singing" he stated simply, he wouldnt ever allow anyone to stop Lupa laughing, she deserved to. "Well thanks but honestly, if anyone walks in on us now we both need the pills because i'm pretty sure my front door is locked and that we'd be seeing things" he joked, nobody was gonna walk in, it was just him, Lupa and an apple stuck to his wall. Grey was used to taking Lupa's hand and guiding her places but this was the first time she had ever taken his, he was startled for a second then closed his hand around hers and smiled at her. "And we've still got years to go" he pointed out with a grin then lent in and kissed her gently on the cheek. "You'll be alright Lupa" he stated feeling like she should know that, he wasnt going to let anything happen to her, he had a lot of people in his life but Lupa was one of the people he'd fight for, like he did for his sister back in the hunger games. [style= font-family: times; font-size: 30px; color: #; line-height: 35%; text-align: center;] Just a gentle reminder that now are better days~

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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? Lupa smiled at his words. It was kind of silly thinking about fighting again. She wondered if she even would have what ti takes to survive anymore. Knowing her she'd probably collapse to the ground, throw her hands over her ears, squint her eyes shut tightly and begin to rock back and forth counting, until the horror would go away. May be some day she'd be strong enough to handle it again, but not now, with this new medication. The schizophrenia meds made her almost feel like her hallucinations were becoming worse and once in a while now she heard voices, obviously that wasn't too good of a sign. At least these pills limited her nightmares from every day to may be four times a week, which was nice cause at least for three days she could sleep peacefully. or as close to peacefully as it got. She'd been so paranoid about her dreams she developed almost insomnia so instead of sleeping, she'd just lay there for hours. Even Sarneea's embrace wouldn't help her. In the games when she had the nightmares Akar held her for the first week, his embrace was different from everyone else's, he was like the brother she never had, and never will again. He'd kept her safe through out the whole games and she couldn't bare to think of him as gone. So she just tricked ehr mind into thinking that he was in the capitol on business and didn't have time to come see her. But she obviously knew this wasn't true. Her ind played tricks like that with her all the time, which made her die slowly on the inside piece by piece. She couldn't ever lose somebody like that ever again, unless it was herself. May be then her misery would cease. Lupa snapped back to reality as she watched Grey walk away. He'd came back with a knife and an apple. The brunette cocked her head sightly to the side almost going to question what he was doing, but decided to just watch. He threw the apple into the air, then the knife at it and it shot straight to the wall. She grinned widely and began to clap her hands and giggle, making her feel like a five year old child being entertained so easily. " Impressive, but you're timing was just a hair off." She laughed, of course joking with him. Lu was never very good with knives, she's usually missed her targets by just a few feet, or would hit them, but totally miss where she was aiming. The snare had been her best friend of course. She was very talented with it, she could put so much force into it that'd it could snap a person's neck. And well with one of the career tributes it did. A few other tributes before her made snares too but none every won with it. They however did not use it like she did, they'd set it up like a live animal trap and well Lupa, just carried the long wire around with her and dropped it from the tree around a persons neck when they came near. She was a sneaky little thing that was for sure, when she was in the games she was as stealthy as cat. A couple tributes she actually electrocuted, which surprised the capitol that she was intelligent enough to make something like that. Years of working with her parents on engineering and such really paid off, even if she was young. Lu chuckled at the comment about the door, she was sure it was locked too." Well there's always the windows you know." The brunette scrunched her nose and spoke matter- of-factly. Her hand reflexive squeeze a little tighter as he close his hand around her,. The kiss on her cheek made her blush once again then she began to chuckle. " I hope you're right."She laid her head against the back of the couch as she kept her hand is in. She breathed slowly before shutting her eyes for a moment thinking. " I feel like you're the only person I can tell this too. Sar is much like you but I just can't trust her as much as I do you sometimes. Do you know why during the Victor's tour after I won the games, why I only got to visit two districts? I'm sure i've never told you but i'm wondering, if the capitol had ever said anything." Lu really wanted to get this off her chest, though it did happen Ten years ago, still, she'd kept it bottled up for a long time and wanted that relief of letting it out to someone. words 783 tagged grey notes D'aw they're so cute :3 outfitclick coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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[grey gaius aldjoy]

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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? Lu grinned, nodding while he explained his talent. He was pretty damn good with his throwing skills, she had to admit. " Us District Three kids, most of us are nerds, so electrocution was another aid for me." She grin slowly faded as she remembered shocking the District One tribute to death. It grosses her out to see her lying on the ground cold and limp. Lu got a shiver down her spine and quickly pulled herself out of her worries before she started to panic. Her attention focused back on him as her smile re appeared. Thinking about someone trying to climb through the window made her laugh a little. She covered her wide grin and quiet chuckles with one of her hands. This child like manner of hers was one of Lupa's favorite things about herself. Whenever someone pointed out rudely how crazy she was she'd just resort to this child like state to defend herself, and it usually worked. The brunette began to speak, sarcastically and joking, she giggled. " Oh gosh,I know you are." She really liked this non-serious side of Grey. It made her feel like she could really let her guard down. She decided it was probably time to get serious again and let out a sigh. A little smirk crept up once he squeezed her hand lightly before disappearing almost as quick as it came." I was so unstable, they ended the tour early, my next stop was District Four. I almost killed a Peacekeeper because I didn't want to go to that District. So they President banned me from it , thankfully, and i'm still not allowed to go there." She bit her lip before continuing on. " I wasn't really put in the psych ward because I wasn't mentally there, it was because i'm dangerous. The president is treating me like a dog. If I don't behave, then well I either get thrown in a cage again. She let out a breath as her voice trailed off, she wasn't even sure how to speak the last part, but it rolled of her tongue easily.....or put down." Her gaze fell from him to her feet. She wasn't an animal, there was no need to kill her like she was. It made her furious how he could just decide her fate like that. Every time she had a dream about the games, she'd pray she died in them, but when she woke up..well that was just it, she woke up. It took almost all the effort she had just to get out of her bed and continue on with her day lately. Actually, there were days she'd go without eating and taking her meds, so she'd just sit there in bed, fr hours and hours on end. Lu would do absolutely nothing other than stare blankly off into space. When she did this she became unresponsive and it would usually scare Sar half to death since she'd always think Lupa wouldn't come out of it. Though the next day she'd be just fine, as if nothing would happen. words 515 tagged grey notes :3 outfitclick coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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[grey gaius aldjoy]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=border,0,true] [style=overflow: auto; width: 346px; height: 300px; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; color: #000000; line-height: 100%; background: #ffffff; opacity: 1.0; text-align: justify; -moz-border-radius: 450px; border-radius: 30px 30px 30px 30px; border: 4px solid #666666;] "Ah i always knew you were a nerd" he joked, he knew she was smart though, most people would look at her and presume that either because she's pretty or because everyone calls her insane that she'd be dumb but Grey had gotten to know Lupa and she was defiantly a lot more than meets the eye. The thought of someone even trying to climb through one of his windows was an amusing thought, for one the windows were surprisingly stiff to open and for two it seemed like a lot of effort just to get into his house. Grey smirked slightly as she said she knew he was right all the time, they were both obviously joking Grey had been wrong so many times in the past he'd lost count, he had also made many mistakes in the past and he knew he had plenty of mistakes to come but that's life. "Balls to that" he said simply, not even himself sure what the hell he was saying, he'd just taken in something that must have been hard for her to say and dismissed it. "They ever try to put you in a cage, i'm breaking you out and you're living with me in secret" he stated simply, as for the being put down thing he almost wanted to pretend she hadn't said it, but she had. "I wont let anyone take your life away, okay?" he told her, simple as that. Grey wasn't sure what else to say after that so he wrapped his arms around her in a hug and just held her for a moment in silence, it was comforting, when he felt like the hug had gone on for long enough he gently let go and gave her a small smile. "You know there's a ton of people who have got your back, i'll be around to help forever, you ever got a problem just phone me or text me, whatever, i'll come running" he stated then took her hand once again, kissed it then let it fall to the sofa still in his. [style= font-family: times; font-size: 30px; color: #; line-height: 35%; text-align: center;] Just a gentle reminder that now are better days~

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wearing this, lyrics from 'a prophecy' by asking alexandria
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[lupa cybell axly]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? The brunette began to laugh.Actually when she was younger she had her heart dead set on becoming a biochemical engineer. After the games she'd lost interest in it though, and she was afraid if she decided to continue with it, the capitol would use it to their advantage. She wasn't really all for that so she backed off the idea. Now her time is consumed with being a mentor and therapy, lots of therapy. Like it even helps, sarcasm of course. She really didn't needed it, time was the one thing that could help her but they didn't seem to understand. Being a mentor wasn't too terribly bad though, she knew better than to get attached which wasn't hard for her to do. She usually pushed people away so this came like a second nature to her. Lu folded her legs to the other side of her, squirming uncomfortably until she finally just crossed her legs. Her grin came back when he spoke of her being broke out of the hospital and secretly living with him. She nodded in agreement. She actually wouldn't have minded that, no more visits to the capitol, no more people she didn't want to talk to, it would finally be a time she'd be able to escape from the games. Lupa took in his words for a moment. Then he hugged her, she sat still for a moment before nuzzling her face into his shoulder. " That's the thing..I don't think it's a bad idea." He voice was soft, breathy almost, as she mumbled those words. Lu enjoyed the silent moment of embrace between them, it wasn't something she was used to since being touchy-feely wasn't really her forte. Grey saying a ton of people were there for her made her smile. She knew she wasn't like by too many but she could always count on him, so that's all that really mattered. She began to giggly and blush again, like a child, once he'd kissed her hand. Usually when people did that, they were from the capitol. It really grossed her out though when they did it, so she'd usually run to the bathroom and sanitize her hands. Yet again with the physical contact which she hated, but with Grey and Sar, she really didn't mind. Lu began to play with her long brown curls while she kept her other hand intertwined with his. The silence was back and it was actually comforting. This was a lot like her and Sar. They could both sit together for hours, not talk about a single thing and be absolutely fine with it, besides half they time they already knew what each other was about to talk about. Some people joked they had psychic powers, but obviously they didn't. words 468 tagged grey notes ^^ outfitclick coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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[grey gaius aldjoy]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=border,0,true] [style=overflow: auto; width: 346px; height: 300px; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; color: #000000; line-height: 100%; background: #ffffff; opacity: 1.0; text-align: justify; -moz-border-radius: 450px; border-radius: 30px 30px 30px 30px; border: 4px solid #666666;] Grey would break her out of hospital if she ever needed him too. He'd have to come up with some way for the capitol not to recognize him, he didnt want to be killed or become an avox but he didnt wand Lupa to be locked up for the rest of her days, although she would have to stay inside at his as she would have to try and not get caught but that had to be better than staying at a hospital all the time. When Grey cared about someone he would naturally become more touchy-feely with them so their embrace felt natural to him. "You still have a life to live and you still have your freedom, but when or if they take that away, i'll come get you" he stated and he would, he wasn't afraid to get himself into trouble to help someone he cared about, if he was he wouldnt have volunteered to take his sister's place in the hunger games, which against most odd's he'd won. Grey smirked a little bit as he managed to make her blush and giggle once again, it seemed all he had to do was flirt or show how much he cared physically for her to enter that state, he'd keep that in mind for it could come in handy if she was ever too upset. The silence that came was relaxing and Grey wanted to just lie down and let his body relax but Lupa was there so he couldnt. Or can i he thought then looked at her hating to break the silence but deciding to anyway "This isnt very comfortable really how about we.." he said then just hoped she trusted him, he gently pushed her onto her side and then lay down behind her, that was much more comfortable for Grey and the sofa was big enough for her to not fall off. "How's this, any better?" he asked, if it wasnt he'd have to work something else out, it was hard to get comfortable on a sofa, he could have headed to bed but he didnt want to leave Lupa alone just yet, and as much as he loved Lupa inviting her to bed could have given her the completely wrong message. Grey didnt want a relationship, he didnt mind flings and things like that but a committed relationship just wasnt for him, partly because he felt he hadnt found his soulmate yet, There had been a time where he'd found himself attracted to Lupa but he hadnt done anything because he wasnt sure how stable she was at the time and now he knew she was beautiful and kind and caring but he felt she was too innocent and fragile for her to ever understand him fully. [style= font-family: times; font-size: 30px; color: #; line-height: 35%; text-align: center;] Just a gentle reminder that now are better days~

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wearing this, lyrics from 'a prophecy' by asking alexandria
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[lupa cybell axly]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? Lupa nodded, a little smirk tugged the corners of her mouth. he wondered just how long she'd keep her freedom for. She'd hoped it was the rest of her life, however long that was going to be. It wasn't the governments decision to end her life, if she wanted it over with she'd do it herself. Hell if she really had the guts she'd do it in public, blame Panem for making her crazy then slit her throat at some large event. Okay so she was a little demented, at least she'd be making a point if that happened. Though she really didn't think she could ever end her own life, that was kind of scary to think about. Lu shook her head for a moment to get the thought out of her mind. It soon disappeared and she focused back on Grey, whom also was squirming around like she just had. She grinned as she noticed he was just as uncomfortable. He spoke to her, Lu processed the words but she wasn't exactly sure what he was doing. After about a minute Lu was on her side laying down and he was right next to her. He asked if his was better and she quickly nodded. "Much." She giggled as she laid there. For a moment she just closed her eyes as she laid next to him. The silence crept its way back and she could only hear her steady breath. At home it was nothing like this, the only sounds to be heard from her house was either Lu and her parents arguing, Lu having a panic attack or the peace keepers fighting with her. Needless to say Lupa was kind of a trouble maker back in her district. But who could blame her? She was sure if anyone else was put into her situation they'd be the exact same way." Grey..... i'm scared." She let her words out slowly, n a hushed voice. In all truth she didn't know really what was going on with her life. She felt like now a days she had no control of herself. She was now the capitol's doll, like a barbie. They dressed her up and drugged her, sold her off on a few dates when she was a hundred percent mentally there, and drug around places just to state that she was a kill. And they wondered why she was so messed up? The brunette continued to stay just like she was for a moment before flipping to face him. She smiled, her eyes squinted slightly as she began to speak again. " Tomorrow will you take a visit to the capitol with me? I want to go pick up some new clothes, but I don't like going alone." She spoke in her cutesy little girly tone that her voice usually contained when she was in a peppy cheery mood. words 480 tagged grey notes ^^ outfitclick coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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[grey gaius aldjoy]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=border,0,true] [style=overflow: auto; width: 346px; height: 300px; font-family: arial; font-size: 12px; color: #000000; line-height: 100%; background: #ffffff; opacity: 1.0; text-align: justify; -moz-border-radius: 450px; border-radius: 30px 30px 30px 30px; border: 4px solid #666666;] Grey noticed Lupa get lost in thought slightly but decided not to interrupt, sometimes you just had to let people think and then their brains would come to some sort of non insane conclusion, that was what he was hoping for, he couldn't imagine Lupa dying and if she did then he'd probably loose a bit of his own sanity with her. He didnt really wanna think about it so he shook his head slightly to get rid of the thought and returned his attention back to Lupa. He was now staring at the back of her head, not much really to look at there except hair but he wasn't complaining it was much more comfortable. He closed his eyes and let himself embrace the silence, it was relaxing, all he could hear were his and Lupa's breath, it was nice and peaceful. "Of what?" he asked, he'd help her overcome any fear she had but first he had to know what she was scared of, nothing was going to happen to her whilst he was around, he'd make sure of that. Grey smiled at her as she flipped around to face him "Of course i'll come to the capitol with you" he told her, he didn't really enjoy shopping for clothes, especially with girls, if the shopping trips with hiss sister were anything to go off, he'd end up just carrying stuff and being the second opinion on every single item of clothing that gets worn. He'd put up with it and not make any complaints though, he felt Lupa needed some time to just go shopping and be careless. [style= font-family: times; font-size: 30px; color: #; line-height: 35%; text-align: center;] Just a gentle reminder that now are better days~

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wearing this, lyrics from 'a prophecy' by asking alexandria
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[lupa cybell axly]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: D0D4D7; border: #526976 solid 9px; width: 410px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? The smile her face held was very leery. Almost like it could break at any given point, but it didn't. Even at the worst of time Lupa could hold her smile. Putting on a fake little act has became much easier over time, she's forced to do it anyway, so why not get good at it? She bit the side of her lip before speaking again."everything." She really couldn't say anything else but that. Her life had been so chaotic, especially these last few months she was just completely overwhelmed and her mind wasn't able to comprehend what was going on. She didn't regret coming here at all, but she felt like she was over-staying her welcome. Lu knew she was such a burden when she went to places she wondered how she even had friends. Well, she did know which "friends" were really friends and not fake to her face, like she was to all of Panem. She took Grey's hand and put it between their faces, resting her forehead lightly on her own hand. She began to smile, slowly fluttering her eye closed. He'd always been so good to her, one day she promised herself that she'd make it up to him. She wasn't exactly sure how to yet, but she'd eventually figure something out. She began to grin widely once he'd agreed to go to the capitol with her. Lu was actually excited, this meant if something bad happened to her there at least she'd have Grey to help. She didn't understand how he could put up with her, or for that matter how anyone could. Her mood fluctuated so frequently, along with the rest of her personality that she was hot and cold. She figured everyone would eventually get annoyed and leave her alone, but most didn't. She really appreciated it. " Thank you..for everything." She felt compelled to let him know,even if he did already know, she couldn't express her gratitude enough. words 330 tagged grey notes ^^ outfitclick coded by becky! of caution 2.0

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